crunk_24's Journal

8:45pm: Guess who is prego!!! NO NOT ME!!! Britney. It is very sad to think about. I mean its already been said that she can't even clean up after her dogs crapping all over the place, what is she going to do when she gives birth to a pooping machine? Steer clear of her place thats for sure cause its gonna be bad.
Whats weird is Julie and I were just talking about this today and how more than likely her an manpri wearing Kevin will probably split cause he has a track record of doing so.
Poor stupid Britney. So sad

6:03pm: ross
I've decided despite my talk of joey's dawson and felicity's noel to go with rachel's ross. or in my case, justin. now once those of you who have only heard me bad mouth him have actualy met him you will see what a nice and wonderful guy he really is. and heactually does treat me the best ofall the people i know(in other words he returns my calls and emails without letting weeks pass) however, if he repeats any actions that caused such turmoil in our first go round ofthis relationship then i will certainly call this whole thing off and never speak to him ever again...and he knows this. anyone who feels this is a bad idea can send comments or complaints directly to me. :)

5:59pm: I need a drink.

5:54pm: work
OK, its now 5:54 and I am still at work. This sucks. I'm supposed to get off at 5 people, don't bring me your million page faxes going to a million people and expect that i can get it done before i leave. at least not if you bring it to me 15 minutes before i leave. Stupid people. I hate people....I hate all stupid people. Dont' be stupid around me or I shall hurt you. Hurt you good.

8:36pm: lost and found
it is sort of like that keepsake you though you misplaced, but you will always remember...and then one day while you're cleaning out your closet you find it again and suddenly everything seems perfect.....or at least fixable. ahhhh life is good.

2:12pm: is it bad...
Should I be angry? I mean everyone keeps telling me I should be mad...but I'm not. I mean obviously there is a good excuse, right? I dunno. But I'm really not mad. I'm just like....whatever. And if he were to call tomorrow and be all, "hey lets hang out". i would be all....sure, no problem. Is that bad?

6:44am: I HATE FLAKES!!!
Don't tell me two weeks ahead of time that we're going to hang out and then we don't.
Don't tell me to call you, but then not answer the phone.
Don't make me leave stupid messages in your voice mail that you never reply to.
Don't ask me what we're doing this weekend...thus causing me to make plans, that you inevitably break.
I hate when people do this, and when you do this it makes me hate you. I don't want to hate you, but seriously...you're forcing me to. There needs to be a serious apology and a definite making up of plans to make me not so disappointed in your total disregard of me and my feelings. I'm pissed.....at you....and I've never been this disappointed or angry at one person...but you have done it and now I don't know what to do with myself.

9:21pm: i miss my boy. nothing is the same. lonesome lonesome

3:51am: ugh
4am and i'm awake, 4 am and i'm awake. shit! the cat just threw himelf at my bedroom door. that was kind of loud. so i woke up at 2 and i'm all sick and crap and now i can't go back to sleep. 4am and i'm awake, 4am and i'm awake. i wonder if anyone will get mad if i leave work early tomorrow. hmmmmm. i'm supposed to do a gift exchange with kyle. wouldn't it be hilarious if i fell asleep. so i locked all my journal entries. i hate feeling like i have to. i also hate changing my email passwords every week. this is ridiculous!! i'm going to start forgetting them, i'm going to start being unable to come up with teh stupid things.
you know what weird.....i only like the taste of water when i'm sick. and even then it has to be like freezing cold water in order for me to drink it at all.
4am, i think i'm ready for sleep...after one more glass of water.

5:30pm: why
why is it that people are constantly saying they will do something and then never do it? it would be much easier to not promise to do said activity rather than lie about it. it just leads to me being mad and disappointed and said person getting their ass kicked.

6:01pm: BOOOOOOOOOORED
So I'm at my dad's house and I'm by myself. My dad has to work late tonight...yes, even on Christmas Eve. So I sit by myself....I was actually so bored that I took a nap. I NEVER nap. It was crazy. I laid down to read and BAM I was asleep. Crazy. So Kyle and I are supposed to get together on Tuesday when he gets back into town to exchange gifts. I hope he likes what I got him. I hope he's not disappointed. Yawn. Nothing left to talk about.....oh bore.

3:18pm: why is it
why is it that you can like someone one minute and hate them the next? or perhaps its just that i don't get what i want from said person and thus it makes me not really hate them, but feel like i may hate them.

8:52pm: Christmas shopping
Went shopping today....still not done. I don't think I spent too much money, but I really didn't keep track....which is probably not a good thing. Things seem to be settling down on the relationship front finally. Nothing has come to a distinct conclusion, but hopefully it will all work itself out....eventually. My new kitten is driving me crazy. He tears through the apt. like a wild animal and makes weird raccoon noises as he jumps and flips around. I think he may be special. I woke up at 7:30 this morning. Seems early, but considering that during the week I've been waking up at 6:30 I feel as if I actually slept in. That's so sad. And now its only 9 and I feel like I've been up for days. Time for bed....I wish.

12:11pm: decision
So i made my decision and as far as I can tell all is good....well, most because now my ex-boyfriend still lives with me, but we're just friends, but then its all weird because he acts weird, then i act weird, so its just weirdness throughout. and the other guy....yea, nothing. Well, not nothing, but that is still just as confusing as before.